Straight out of high school I met a guy. A guy who I thought could give me more love and happiness than anyone before. I left my home, my family, and my friends to live with him, too far away from my hometown to visit often. About two months later we were married.
After we were married I found out that he was on drugs, had some mental issues, and he was verbally abusive. He would only tell me the negative things about me. He would tell me I was fat, my hair was horrible, I was lazy, etc. After about a year I just didn’t think I was strong enough to deal with the life I had chosen for myself. I fell into a deep, deep depression. I was working and spending a lot of time painting at the community college. I would wake up and go to work, then straight to the studio to paint until I knew he would be in bed, then I would go home. I did this for five years. Five years I had no-one, I had nothing but my paintings. I started not to feel anything. I stopped crying, I stopped smiling. I didn’t know who I had become.
One day I went into a gas station and a man behind the counter told me about a video he had seen about a secret. I was very interested, seeking desperately for something to lift my spirits and change my life. The man told me he would get me a copy and leave it in the store for me to pick up. One night after painting I took the video home, and before I did anything I put it in the VCR and watched. I decided at that moment that I was going to change my life by using the law of attraction.
Only a week later my husband moved to Hazard (my hometown) to look for a job. Two months later I followed. Finally things were looking better. I had my family back, I had friends back. I was starting to recognize me again.
I became more and more curious about The Secret, and went out to get the book. I read every page, and with every word I became more and more confident in my ability to make myself happy. For five years I had been depending on him to make me happy. The Secret taught me that only I can do that. Only I am responsible for my happiness.
I found the job I currently have, and automatically found some of the best friends I could ask for.
But things with him never changed - they got worse. He didn’t like to see me succeed, so the abuse got worse. I came to the realization that there was something better for me. My life was going to be extraordinary. I had always been too scared to leave, but I had finally found the confidence. And I left. I didn’t ask for anything... I wanted to leave with only the necessities. My car and my clothes. I wanted to start from scratch. I looked at it as a second chance, and this time it would be right, it would be perfect, it would be exactly what I deserve.
At first I spent a lot of time on me. Learning to love myself and how I can make me happy. Then I started thinking about 'him'. I didn’t know who he was, I didn’t know where he was, but I knew he was out there. The one person who was made for me. I imagined exactly what he would be like, how he would love me, things he would say to me. There were certain times throughout the day when I would smile and think of how grateful I was to have finally been able to find my soul mate. This would be in the morning while I was getting ready for work, on my way home from work, and before I went to bed. I would feel it in my heart, the feeling of love. The way I would feel when I met him. I was so excited and thankful.
One night I received a call from a high school friend who I hadn’t talked to since graduation. He asked me to come out to a restaurant with him and some friends. It was late, and I normally would have said no. But something gave me a little push and said, 'go.' So, I got ready and went.
As I said, it was late, and the restaurant was closing. We didn’t want to go home, and I was already in town, so we decided to go to a new bar in town. I had never been to a bar in my life, and I thought, "What the heck, I'll go." As soon as I walked in the door, my eyes went straight to the back of the room. And I saw him standing there. He was a boy I had dated in high school, the last boyfriend I had before getting married. Before I got to him, his friend stopped me and said, “You know he’s been waiting for you?” I didn’t quite understand what he meant, so I asked him. His friend told me that he hadn’t had a girlfriend since we had broken up, almost seven years ago. I was shocked. I couldn’t believe it. So, I went to talk to him. After catching up for an hour or so I asked him about it, and he confirmed, saying that he just knew we would be together again. He said, "I had prayed to God every night that he would bring you back into my life. And I knew in my heart that if I ever saw you again we would be together forever." He completely swept me off my feet.
He is wonderful; he is the man I had thought about every day. He says the things and does the things that I had imagined. I know that he was drawn to me, and I was drawn to him, all in the process of the law of attraction. We will be getting married a year from now, and I cannot wait to see what the future holds for me. I know it will be nothing less than amazing.
It works. It really works. And you are the one who is in charge. You control how your life turns out. It can be extraordinary. You can go from nothing to everything you ever dreamed of. I am so thankful that The Secret found me in that gas station.
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